How you adore your friends. After graduating from college, they are already on their own with a job. But you, still alone and living with your parents. You can't buy the stuff you want and you can't even pay your own bills because you don't have your own freaking house. What a disaster, you're nothing but a useless piece of crap. No one to turn to and there's no one to even lend you some freaking money. 

You've always wanted to travel, explore and do some adventures. But how could you? You don't have money to pay all the expenses. Instead you're stuck in the house reading some paper back novels and watching TV. Everyday seemed to be a very productive day when you're up all day dreaming about how you're life would probably be if you're not too lazy or scared to apply for a job. 

You can't do it because it's too risky. You might choke in front of the employer while he's asking his stupid questions like, "Why do you want the job?" And then you start to reply inside you head, "Because I need money, you moron!"

But it's not going to work if you do it that way. So, you'll have to be polite and you need to answer the question in utmost sincerity if you really want to get hired. Sure, you have to lie about something but don't be too dishonest. You might get caught and get fired if ever you'll get the job. 

Nonetheless, how can you work productively if you don't really like the work your applying to? You only need the money in the first place. You're thinking that you still need to help the family, need to buy your own house, need to buy the things that you've always wanted and want to prove to your friends that you're not a loser because you already have a fu**ing job!

Now you're laughing because you're only imagining all these stuff. Then you frown realizing that you're being too irresponsible. The life you've always wanted is nothing but a dream unless you do something about it. And the people you know will look down on you and tell you things that will definitely break your already fragile heart. 

But who's fault is it? It's still yours. Because you were too scared and so freaking lazy to do something productive about your life.